~It comes from world of no one~

BACK HOME!

2008-12-28T06:08:00.000-08:00

OMG it's been almost a month after my last post. I have been lazy!

Neways, for those who don't know just informing you guys that I am back in Malaysia.
Waiting for this day really killing me, two weeks of works and dramas in Canby is worse than having exams.

It feels so nice to be home. There are some of you who I haven't meet yet, if you guys have time please message or call me lar. Let's meet up and hang out abit. Let me miss you guys abit mah... Hehe..

Well, I just came back from camp today. I am super tired now. Just dropped by here to announce that I AM FINALLY BACK!!! So now I really need a rest...will talk to you soon...>!

peak level of boredom

2008-12-01T16:09:00.001-08:00

Exams ended at last. But I wasn't really in the mood of blogging. Sorta lazy to update anything nowadays.

Just came back from Melbourne not long ago. There is time when I am bored and there is time when I am having time. Honestly, Melbourne is a very beautiful place.

I am just bored now. Not working, don't want to drama, don't know what to do. I just want to go back home as soon as possible.

Personality test

2008-11-18T15:51:00.000-08:00

A test I just took...How accurate it is?

Do you really think so of me?

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Try it...
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Right before it ends

2008-11-18T15:23:00.000-08:00

TIRED and BORED
(That's how I looked now, tired and bored but as lovely as ever)
*shy*wink*

Half way reading text for tomorrow's final paper of the semester. Finally, it comes to an end. It's been more than a month I am stressing over the exams. I bet most of you know what's going on, as far as I concerned, I think I complained to everyone. Haha...Guess I was just so sick of exams and studies...

The toughest, most scary, terrible, horrible paper finished yesterday. As expected, CAN'T DO. Don't think that I am exaggerating because I am not. Apparently out of five question I can only answer one question. I didn't cry after the exam, just gave up during the exam. And I think it's better for me to save my tears now till when I get my result in two weeks time...YAYYY.....Bless me that I won't jump off from the building...wakakkaka...

I got the feelings that I will be missing the lifestyle I am having during exams period. Before you sleep, you study. When you are awake, you study. Before dinner, you study. After dinner, you study. Lunch and breakfast always study together with you in the room. Coffees become your closest friend who you CAN'T afford to lose. Bed is now your enemy. What a lifestyle......I guess that's how everyone gonna be when you are in university.... Don't think it's easy as what others said, as apparently it is thousands times tougher than your SPM!

Neways, parties in a row after tomorrow. Leaving a week for Melbourne next Monday. SHOP, BINGE, CAMWHORE, are all I am going to do!!!! Anyone feels like joining me????

Pre-exams syndrome

2008-11-01T17:23:00.000-07:00

Tonnes of thoughts will suddenly popped out of my mind when it's near exams everytime. I wonder why...

*Determined to lose weight(since long time ago but never see the effect)
*Trying to plan trips
*Trying to get in contact with friends(msn 24/7)
*Thinking how to improve self dicipline
*Thinking how the others are doing back in Malaysia
*Missing family and friends heavily suddenly
*Trying to update blog as much as possible
*Check mails every hour(but there is only average a mail within 2-3 hours)
*Try to update profile in facebook and friendster
*Being nostalgic enough to keep viewing pictures taken in the past
*Etc etc etc

All sort of things that will try to stop you from continue study......
Pressure? Stress?
Procrastination........
Serve you right Jesswynn....

!!!

2008-10-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

BORED BORED and BORED.

I am supposed to study now but it seems that no inputs are being absorbed.
Might as well I spend some time telling you guys stories...

Last Sunday when I went to work, I actually went bus interchange an hour early.
It was my HP's clock. Both of HP automatically updated itself due to day light savings which ended like 1 2 weeks ago?

Wasn't aware of my watch actually showed seven something in the morning instead of eight somethng. No wonder I saw no one in the interchange, weird scene. Luckily my housemate gave me a message asking why am I heading to work so early. zzzZZzz

Finals really tearing me aparts. It's been two weeks that I am not having a good sleep. It's not that I am not sleeping but what's the point of waking up every hour and study for 15mins before you went to sleep again? Every hour every night every day..... T.T

Climate in Canberra is so extreme recently. It can gets really cold like winter and suddenly it gets soooo HOT, something like in Malaysia I guess. I couldn't stand the heat. It's really killing me. This kind off weather makes my nose bleed so frequent. ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I need aircond but I need heater at the same time!!!!!!!!!

How to survive?????? Even now also I am so freaking HOT!!!!!!!!!PANAS gilerrr.....

感触

2008-10-20T21:39:00.000-07:00

电话已挂上，
眼里的泪就快落下，
妈妈的那一番话让我犹不自禁的哭了。
一直担心有的没的，
却没全心全意的专心读书，
面临着两个礼拜后的考试的我，
觉得很对不起爸妈，
我竟然把他们的血汗钱扔进火坑，
这样的成绩，让他们失望了。。。。

妈说：尽力就好。。。过的一天就一天，最重要的是要开心。。无须担心什么的，船到桥头自然直。。熬多几年绝对不是问题。。。需要的时候，要到处挖都会挖到给你。。你的爸妈是行的，姓黄的都是行的。

妈让我更依赖她了。。。可是现在的我是不是应该马上回去做书虫的世界呢？

STRESS

2008-10-19T22:49:00.000-07:00

ARGHHhhh......Exams coming in two weeks time.... I haven't even start anything yet..... STRESS like hell but what can I do?????????? STUDY everyday is really killing me.......!!!!!!!

GOOD DAY GOOD MOOD!

2008-10-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

Another busy day at work place. HOWEVER, I wasn't that stress anymore when doing coffee. Things go kind of well for me. I don't reckon myself for doing good coffee today but there are customers who think so.

Colin(the manager of cafe) came to me suddenly in the noon saying that there are customers reckon my coffees are much better than coco black(a shop which sell coffees and chocolates; I heard there is branch in Malaysia not sure bout it) in the city. Fantastic! That's what I answered when people asking how am I after that.

ALSO, there is a reservation with about 30 veterans having their coffee after meals. Once again, my coffees served them well. I was really excited and sort of proud of myself(in my heart). Want to try my coffee?

It's spring now in Australia. You started to see lotsa white fluffy thingy flying all around Canberra. It's just like snowing everywhere. I asked my colleague what's that. Guess what she said? According to her, there is this myth saying that if you saw the white fluffy thingy flyin everywhere and you haven't start studying for your exams, you are screwed up! The white thingys are from the trees. I never see the trees before. It happens every year somewhere near the exams. That's why she said you are screwed up when you haven't start study!

Just imagine there is white fluffy cotton flying everywhere in Kuala Lumpur. That's exactly what happened here! Trust me it's really beautiful. I couldn't snap photos cause you won't be able to see it in the photos.

Kuih muih time!

2008-10-08T01:54:00.000-07:00

I am currently at common room using pc while waiting for my kuih keria in the oven. It's for the upcoming event. Dessert night with the theme of deeparaya and I am in charge of kuih keria for 250 pax. So now I am trying out whether it will turn out successful or not. If not later people will shoot my kuih keria... SOB SOB....

Very first task after becoming one of the commitee of MSO. How well and how far can I go?

Take a guess.....

Looking for my soul

2008-10-07T03:37:00.000-07:00

I am absent minded from last Sunday until today I guess. I wasn't aware of what I am doing, and always took like two seconds before I can respond to others. What is wrong with me? I wasn't sad or down. I am all good all fine but I think my soul went out for travelling.

The first thing I did when I was at work is BROKE a water bottle last Sunday. Then spilt the drinks, bang the tables, dropped the milkshake. I don't know what more I did. Yesterday wasn't a good day either. I knew I did something but I just couldn't recall. I just know that I keep switch off the light when I went into the toilet or my room. But I didn't switch it on immediately. In fact I took some time to think what I've did before it comes to my realize that the light is off.

I went in work earlier today as they need people. I was sleeping and half blur. First task of the day, people asking for coffee I made tea instead. Fine. Thought it was just a mistake. Not long after, people wanted hot chocolate to take away, what I did? I put in the mug for them. I don't know what was I doing! Even people talk to me also I don't know. OMG.....

The best thing is after I came back and took a shower, I went online. Half way online, suddenly I had this memory flashed by. I couldn't recall whether I shampoo myself when I shower just now. I tried to think as hard as possible but I just couldn't remember. OMG......

WHERE are my SOUL?

Latest updated

2008-10-03T00:21:00.001-07:00

Its been a week after midterm holiday starts. Have been doing nothing other than work work and work, not even studies. It's a busy week after all. Last Friday, went to floriade night fest but tickets were sold out. Floriade comes together with spring. It's time when all the flowers blossom. It's a yearly event in Canby I guess. At the end I was licking MacDonald's ice cream in Canberra centre. Thought of starting my revision in the midnight, ended up clubbing with friends. It was an unforgettable night. It's reflex for it to come to imaginary vision, though brain is controlling hard on it. Helpless.

Saturday night, went to Nara festival. It's an anniversary celebrating the alliances between Canby and Japan. That was what I know. It's a cold night, windy. People were rushing there when I am on the way there. Event ends at 9pm. It was 6.30pm back then. Nothing much bout Nara, the most special about it would be the candles. Candles were lighted surrounding a tower, more like people made their wish or pray in front of the tower. Didn't know what that actually was. Walked around, dropped by some stalls for games and food. Was fun but was tired at the same time until it came to a wishing tree. It might sounds lame or stupid when modernised people still believing in it, same thought was running in my mind. On the other hand, you saw I was writing and tying my wishes on the tree. What wish could it be? Some wish that I thought I won't be wishing all the while.

Tuesday morning, headed to day time floriade. Night fest ended on Sunday. It's a yearly event, have to drop by at least for a minute. It's all about flowers. It's all about photography. It's all about being artistic. I am the photographer. I am the artistic person. Catch the photos on my facebook. No doubt, you will agree with my phrases above. It's not self praise.

Wednesday, went to Narooma bay. Whale watching. Slept along the way there for 3 hours and plus. Jetty seems pitiful to me. No people around, no shops around, not even cars passed by lots. I wonder how it will be. It was a sunny day for Aussie, it was like desert for me. Couldn't stand the heat. Went on the boat, journey looking for whale started. Strong winds made the boat wavy, really wavy. Felt like the boat is going to capsize in no time. Half hour just passed, nothing turned up, boredom came to me. Sleepiness followed after boredom. Everyone was waiting quietly for whale to show up. It came to everyone attention when someone shouted. It's really whale. It's two of it. It's really huge. It's so unbelievable that a whale was in front of me. Hilarious....

Check out the photos in facebook. Laziness really grabbing me from upload it again and again. Hope you enjoy the pictures.

Short update about me.
Currently studying for finals. Getting fatter and trying to lose weight.
Was sick these two days after the whale watching....Heat stroke I assumed.
Missing home as usual.

Cheers
Jesswynn^^

Jogging

2008-09-26T04:35:00.000-07:00

I fell down today when I went jogging with my friend. This is the first time I fell down after so long. Somemore this is the first time I went jogging with this friend. So unlucky. Haih.

The funniest thing is we took lots of picture along the way. So I would say that other than jogging, the main thing we are doing is camwhoring. Pictures are available in facebook. I am really really really jogging. Diet is needed here.

Life

2008-09-22T21:37:00.001-07:00

Class ended early today. I saw my paper which I almost failed. I was really upset about it. I always think that this subject is one fo the easy subject that I can do. But I never expect that it might be the worse result among all the subjects. I think i have to get rid the mindset of 'this subject is easy and I can always do it'. Hard works start now!

It seems like I am sort of motivated but throughout the whole day I didn't do much thing except for two tutorial questions. SlacK. But Sze Huey actually inspired me through MSN. It's been long time I never really being so serious msn-ing. I guess she is almost the same person as me when I am serious? Haha. She talked bout life which I always looking into.

Both of us think that hard work doesn't play the most important roles in life. Not to say that we no need hard works but there is something come before it, UNDERSTANDING. Some people have the understanding but some people are pursuing after it, said Sze Huey. How if we couldn't look the path towards it throughout the whole life? She said, that's depend on my decisions and thoughts.

Her words really make me think lots. I am always playful and never take things seriously. I was thinking is it the time for me to get serious? Is it the time to be matured? Hmmm that's a tough one. There is lots of thing for each of us to learn, getting into university is just part of it. All of this, not that I never thought of. It is always at the corner of my mind. Just that thinking of the responsible and stress that I am going to face pushing it aside.

How many people out there really can stand out as someone different? I used to be very confident that I am one of them. I used to believe in myself so much that I am different from everyone. I used to trust my own capability. I used to imagine myself as one of the successful person in future. I used to know that Wong Yunn Yi is a great person. It might sounds that I am overconfident but that's what I used to hold.

Getting into university, what I used to think of myself suddenly vanished. I started to be someone opposite. I become a negative thinking, emotional person. Until after the election, I know I have to find back who I used to be. I must look back whatever I had and hold on that tightly. I don't want to be some slackos out there.
Thankz Sze Huey.

Time to start understanding what I am doing.

STANd uP

2008-09-19T03:13:00.000-07:00

Let's crap abit today. I just got my midsemester exam for one of the subject. And I did badly for it, worse than last semester. Or I shall say that this is the worse result I ever gain during my study life for 20 years. I was really disappointed with it. I never expect it would be this. When I saw the result, my heart is broken into ashes not pieces!!

I was really sad and complained to some of my friends. As expected, you will be hearing you are actually smart, you are not dumb, you might did some mistake and all the comforting sentences. I know that they are trying their very best to make me feel better. But it just didn't work that way. I just want someone to listen to me and comfort me though the comforting sentences are not useful.

I know that I won't just fall and stay at where I am standing now. I know that I will move on. All the sadness and complains are just the way of making myself feel better. It's temporaily frustration that I am face with. Only after complains and tearings, I can really feel better and motivated again. I can't change something happened, but I always have the power to change something which is happening. So now what? USE the power!

To all my dear friends out there, thank you very much for listening and comforting your helpless friend here. All your efforts are much appreciated. Your friend, me is once again recovered from before, living for a better one. Self-confidence are back....

Random post

2008-09-17T15:18:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys I know I haven't been updating my blog for a long time. I was having exams for the past two weeks lar..... Really getting busier!!

Anyways, there is nothing much I can say also. What I did is just study whenever I am free and try to catch up with my studies mah. This semester damn stressful. Even now mid semester exams are over I still have my assignments dueing AND AND AND I have to start my preparations towards finals. You see I where got time to sit down and update myself?

Oh ya, recently I went for an election to be president in this society but hehe I lost. I only become general committee. I know that sounds abit lousy to be announced here, but yea I think it's not a bad thing after all that I am not elected. You no need to know the reasons why as long as I know. Hahaha..... Shhhhh.....

So ya, I get even hectic when I am one of the committee because there are few events coming up soon and that's like two weeks before my finals. OMGGG!!! My time is really occupied. But but if you guys really want to update about me, you can always see me online. MSN is always my favourite hobby. Haha...

Mid authumn festival just passed. For those who don't know what is that, it's mooncake festival(Malaysian's styles). It's pretty sad that I can't be with my family, LONER. Haha. But the most important thing is I missed out the mooncake this year. They do sell mooncake here if you go Asian Groceries Shop but like I said NO TIME to even step out of the room!! But at least me and few of my friends cooked something nicer and so called celebrated it. Everyone is missing home........cause of MOONCAKE!

Alright then, I have to go back to study now. Have been slacking for quite a while. Will try to update as much as possible k.. Thanks for the concern everyone.....love ya

阴天的我

2008-09-06T05:43:00.000-07:00

今天的我，心情很沉重。
好几次，泪，不知不觉地从眼里流下。
好想知道，悲哀的根源在哪儿。。。。
因为她？或是他？
最近承受的压力已经不少，现在更是火上加油。。
我就快崩溃了。。。
能够支撑到现在，也是为了那区区的考试。。。
唉，天哪！！！！
我不喜欢崩溃的感觉！！！
就还有那几个月，可以让我安心快快乐乐的过吗？
拜托嘛。。。。。

For you : NICK and Zhi Yuan

2008-09-01T17:20:00.000-07:00

This post is specially for Nick and Zhi Yuan. I am so sorry Nick that I left out your name in the thank you list. I know I sort of left out something but I couldn't remember until Zhi Yuan msn me last night. I am always not aware with things and people around me. SORRYYYYYY....... Thousands APOLOGIESSSSSSSSS.........

THANK YOU SO MUCH NICHOLES CHEN.

So hard to see his face....(Maybe that's why I missed out his name...OPPPS)
Again can't see.....
Finally, this is Nick.......Keke....

Nick:
Please forgive me okay.....
I will make sure there is no next time.....
I will open my eyes BIG BIG and widen my sight's range next time.....
SO SORRY....

For Zhi Yuan, he was upset that his photo wasn't up for the MASCA NCG game. So now.......

CHUA ZHI YUAN......Gordy......SOMEONE??!.......

TIO SHER REEN & CHUA ZHI YUAN...

P/S : Zhi Yuan this is specially for you and NICK... Make sure you guys read ar............ Be PROUD at the same time that I actually sacrificed my study time for this..... HEHE...Joking.....

Politicals

2008-08-29T03:31:00.000-07:00

Two more weeks there will be election for MSO commitee. MSO is Malaysian Student Organisation in ANU and it's the most active society in ANU. Everyone is campaigning in order to gain more votes during the election. There is total 8 positions, President, Vice President, Secretary, Treasurer and 4 General Commitees. Now that there is this party running around the campus stating who is running for all the above positions. The main thing is there is few candidates that none of us reckon as capable.

So basically what we did is we decided to just ignore what we saw. But the other day a friend of mine was telling me that since we are not satisfied with them we should in fact get someone who can run against them. I do admit that I have the intention to run for a position at first, but my intention just vanish from my thoughts after I saw the party formed.

I think I wouldn't like to be part of them. Obtaining votes through networks and not capababiity is always not what I am looking forward to. Of course, if you have the capabability and people vote for that it would be a different thing. But it seems like they are helping each other to get the positions in MSO neglecting the other members. It seems like University also have all the political issues.

I was chatting with my friend about this. She actually did some analysis on me. According to her, I am those kind of person who can excel in analysis problems than making decisions. Her best suggestion is vice president because vice president's job is less stressful and it seems like easier. I don't know whether I should take it as complement or what. It make me sounds like I am like a worthless piece of paper. Hehe.... I always know that I can't do a good job if I am stress out. My EQ is very low. And what I have done all this year is to improve my EQ, but it seems that it never gets better. I might need to work harder then....

I just feel that from this issue, I think I might need to work harder and improve myself. I couldn't give people the impression that I am capable, people just don't recognise me as someone better. Sometimes I do feel that people will only thought of me when all the good one they thought are gone. I just don't stand out as someone special. But this will not stop me to be a better one.

I made a wish for my birthday this year...

I hope I can be someone people acknowledged as BEST.

Words of thankz~

2008-08-27T18:31:00.001-07:00

I will really say that I had a great birthday here. Without your care, love and thoughts my birthday might be nothing......nothing at all....

Really appreciated what you guys did for me, all the celebrations, all the efforts, all the thoughts, all the wishes, all the calls........ Really thank you very much. I am not a good writer or a good speaker, other than saying thank you and giving hugs I don't know what else I can do to express my feelings. I hope you guys can really feel the appreciations and love from me.

First celebration
This is the party organized by my housemate and coursemates. They really put in lots of effort to live up the party and try to do whatever they can to make sure I am contented. Thank you sooo much.....

*Huiling*
*Kahee*
*Shuyi*
*Chivone*
*Geofrrey*
*Huiqin*
*Aron*
*Dexter*
*Sunchuan*

Eve and the Day after
What else I can say bout you guys? Nothing much but just want to give everyone of you a big hug. You guys have been the one take caring of me ever since I stepped into land of Australia. Helping me in so many things. Really glad that I got to know the most incredible leng chais and leng luis in ANU. Thank you so much Leng chais and Leng luis.....Love you guys... Muakzz

*Sher Reen*
*Weiling*
*Melissa*
*Latha*
*Gordon*
*Qizheng*
*Zhiyuan*
*Alex*
*Melvin*

On the day
Nothing much I did today like I said. It's all the wishes and calls that make me feel warm and hot even without the heater especially those who called from Malaysia. Thank you so much. And I definitely missing you guys now!!! Definitely!

*Anne*
*Siewwui*
*Kelly*
*Leong*
*Cheah Siang*

Thanks guy for the calls. It really nice and warm to hear your voices in such a cold weather. Cheah siang actually recorded birthday song sng by him and sent to me through msn. Thank you soo much. That's really so nice of you. You are the sweetest............. THANKS darlings....

Of course thanks again for those who send me wishes through sms, friendster and facebook. There is quite a number of you so I couldn't actually list our every name here. But But But, you all still receive the most sincere thanks from my heart. HEART to HEART..... Hehe.

Last but not least, there is one person I never mention even in the previous blog. But she is the most important person. My MUMMY.... Thanks you soo much mum... Without you I couldn't be in any part of the world now... Your love is my everything.. Thank you so much..... I MISS YOU...DAd... The same thing goes to you.... I know I am like you, don't really know how to express our feeling...hehe...LOVE YOU...*muakz*

THOUSANDS HUGs and MUAKZz

GREATEST BIRTHDAY!!!

2008-08-27T16:56:00.000-07:00

HEY, Jessw is here to update and brighten up her blog!! It's been some time that i never upate anything so today i am here to update myself. The most recent activity and fun I had would be my birthday!!!

First Celebration

Really had a first ever great birthday at Australia. I feel so loved and warm although my family wasn't with me. Last Saturday, my coursemates actually organized a party celebration for three of us, Jesses, Aron and Sunchuan. Since our birthdays are on 24,25 and 26.

Well everything went pretty well, and I actually got three birthday cakes!!!! One from shop, one made by Huiling and another one is muffin I brought back from work. Keke. There is about 10 of us and what I did that night was camwhoring around with them.

Unfortunately my best camwhore partner wasn't around with me, right Siewwui? Haha, I bet she is missing me sooo much now at home!

Anyways, the birthday party was definitely fantastic!

Camwhore FREAK!

Presentees of the night...

Cool posers....

Jessw, Aron, Sunchuan

Made by Huiling, brought back from work by Jess, bought by Aron

Eve

But that's not the end of the story yet. On 25th night, I thought I will just spend my last few minutes of teens in my room doing my assignment. I wasn't really have the mood to make a big deal about my 20th. Anne called me at 12am and wished me. I have never hear from her for so long.... I guess I really miss her. ANNE you are the FIRST person to wish me!! Be PROUD!!

When I was just into the phone call, I heard Sher Reen shouted my name outside my room. I guess I knew what happened. There is a moment that I thought that everyone is here to suprise me, but that just slipped through my mind as I thought it might be only Sher Reen and Zhi Yuan. Fortunately, I was wrong. Everyone is here!! For who??? For Jessw Wong Yunn Yi's big 20th!!

It was the BEST night ever!! I really feel so glad and touched that they actually celebrated for me. There was some time that my first 20 years old tear almost drop out. That's really so sweet of them and I am really appreciating what they did and our friendships.

Siewwui called me after that thinking I never receive her birthday message. But I expected that she will call me cause I know she will never forget her best partner's birthday! It's just a matter of timing, right?

Thank you so much for those who remember and wished me. Wishes are just great enough to change my day! I just love it when my phone receives calls and messages. Well, that's pretty much of the eve.

The suprising moments....

Tada...Suprised!!
My Beautiful cake!

On the day

I was late for class! I didn't do much thing today. What I did was just stay in my room doing my tutorial. Haha. But the best thing is the birthday wishes and calls still coming in. Kelly actually called me from Sydney and sang a birthday song to me. That's sooooooo sweet of her... Thankz Kelly! Eventually, Cheah Siang too recorded a birthday song sang by himself and wished me through msn. Thankz dude... Leong also called me from Malaysia to present me with his so called lovely voice. Anyways, thankz! Remember to treat me when I go back home!

It seems like on the day itself is the most boring day...Hahaha...

The day after

My Birthday dinner was postponed till the second day Weiling and Melissa got exam this afternoon. We went dinner at IORI, a japanese restaurant with very GOOD price. I had salmon for my dinner. Don't ever that its a piece of salmon with some rice. Look at the picture below! It's all salmon dish!! Saw the small glass there? It's full of the eggs!!!!!! This is really very nice!! They said it's better than jogoya. I have never try that so I can't compare. But the meal was superb. Trust me! I was pretty tired when I was having dinner cause I never sleep for the 2 nights before. Really can't stand longer. But I was energized when they gave me present!! My First present for 20th birthday!! Guess what they gave me? An IPOD NANO that I wanted to buy so long ago!!!! It's good that they can read my mind cause I never tell anyone I want one also. This is really great birthday present!!

Girls of the night

Guys of the night

Exciting moments of unwrapped the present

Here we go here we go....
YAY...yippy.... It's ipod Nano....

*Thoughts*

Every gift you receive from your friends represent something. It tells that you are being remembered, you are part of them. The gift is the bond, the friendship between you and them. You are happy and smilling all the time when you receive a present, not cause of the materials but you know you are gifted with such a great friendship.

I know I am being surrounded by great friendships, that's why I think that Jess Wong Yunn Yi is always the luckiest person in the world. Thankz. Love you people... *hugss*

UPdate!

2008-08-26T16:33:00.000-07:00

Feel like wanted to update myself now! But that will be in few more hours coz i gotta rush for class now..... Will see you guys in no time...!!!!! Aiks Aiks....

NOT MY DAY!!

2008-08-14T01:41:00.000-07:00

I thought today is my day. Everything seems to be fine since morning, even I was in real good mood. I was listening to lecture and putting on earphone at the same time. It was a great start!

However, it was a fault start! When I went for finance lecture I left out my notes on my room's table. I forgot to bring along my notes last week and today, deja vu. Then I started to fall asleep. Just 15mins more before lecture ended, I never realized that my phone was still playing songs and I plugged off the earphone. Out of the sudden, my phone played the song using loudspeaker. The lecturer was like saying 'That's very good'. Make me freaking panic and have to switch off immediately.

Then when I came home and wanted to vacuum my house, the bloody vacuum was not working. This is the second time I borrowed the vacuum from reception. I have to go down all the way from forth floor just to borrow and return that useless thing. I am going to buy one soon I think. Waste my time and energy just to get that.

After that I went cooking also, burnt my tongue. Haih..... Please stop all the unfortunate moments on me please. Don't ever break my good day!! SIEN ARrRRRRRRrrr!!!

Somemore I can't watch olympic games that I wanted to here. The network here only shows games which involve Aussies. How unfair is that. SOBbbbb......

Missing home already...... T.T

Crying for it....

2008-08-12T09:37:00.001-07:00

Second night I stayed myself up till middle of the night. Not doing others stuff, two eyes of mine just trying their very best to concentrate on few pieces of lectures handout, struggling to figure the best solution. Solution to? Problems in the handouts? Nah.... It's the Olympic's games.....

I couldn't watch it over here. Australia is not part of badminton...... Sigh

Time's up before I can write more. Study time....

Tired

2008-08-03T02:57:00.000-07:00

It's 7.57pm now. Out of sudden I feel very tired. Not physically tired but mentally tired. I am now sitting alone in the room stoning. This is the third blog I am writing for the day.

I am tired. Tired of study? Tired of working? Probably last night drank too much and cause my body feel so feeble now. Tired of competing with others to excel. It is always in my mind that I have to work hard and hard in order to excel. I will feel uneasy when I saw someone did better than me. I know it's not good for me to think that way but I just can't stop my brain to function.

In another way, I would say myself as can't afford to take failures. For a moment, I thought I am over it. I am no longer someone can't afford to lose. Eventually I am worse than who I used to be. I guess that's the main reason I am tired. I really don't feel like competing and give myself a relax and better lifestyle. But you think that's going to happen? NO WAY unless you want to sleep under the bridge next time..

ARGHHH, I need to make my life easierrrrr..... Siennnn arrr!!!

Loneliness

2008-08-02T18:04:00.000-07:00

I am feeling miserable now. I read some blogs of my friends. I realized that everyone seems to be having the some problems. Loneliness. Even I am also having the same feeling. I am surrounded by lots of friends everyday, they are supposed to be like part of my family taking care of each other. But I just couldn't trust them completely as what I did for my family and friends back in Malaysia. I feel lonely. I feel that I can't get a friend who I can actually talk to here, I feel that I have to change myself in order to click with them. I feel like I am not being myself sometimes.

Now that we mentioned this, I sort of agree when people said we can always get good and close friends during our primary and high school. Is this true? I don't know. The feelings I got here when I mix around with people are very different compared to old time. It's like you need to be careful and aware all the time because you will never know what kinda person are them. They might be the one harming you at the end though they treat you super nice at the begining. They seems to be caring but they actually care more to themselves.

Friendships are always hanging outside their mouth, but when come to action different things turned up. Somehow I got the feeling that they treat you based on the value of your friendships. If you are nothing then you please stand aside, if you are needed please show up yourself. Of course not everyone is like this. All this is just base on my observations and thoughts.

Whether is it true or false statement, we will see how in future then..............................

International Ball

2008-08-02T17:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was International Ball 2008 of ANU. It's kind off grand event according to my friends because it involves students from all over the asia countries. I don't know I just know that I am not that prepared to go to the ball. I thought it was just a simple n lousy don't know what ball but everyone is so on for it.

Next year I must make sure I am really prepared for it. Photos can be viewed at my facebook http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=531847563
I very lazy want to upload here. Hehe. Nothing much about the ball I can say about just two course meals and some performances. I was thinking when I can be like one of them and performing on the stage. It seems like I am a bit into performing now.

Well after party is the most important thing here. CLUBBING!! But please don't misunderstand as I am not a clubbing person.

First, drinking is definitely not what I prefer.
Secondly, noisy and loud music will never be in my music library.
Third, I am not a dancing person as in not good in dancing but will love to learn.
Forth, rationally I won't spend money on all the nonsense alcohol which will bring you suffers.

Unfortunately, whatever I mentioned above is what I did last night, OOOPPPSSSSyy!!

Drink : I took about 6-7 glasses of shot. And it's not all the same!! One rule you can never break if you don't want to get drunk!!
Loud and noisy music : I somemore complained the music wasn't good enough to dance or make us high. Music was bad to dance.
Dance : No doubt I was dancing the whole night!!
Money : ????? Don't even know how much I spent....... Ended up reach home vomitted the whole night. Somemore I left my passport in the toilet...GOOD!!!!

Mang Liuz....Nostalgic

2008-07-28T21:18:00.000-07:00

Semester two has been started for a week. I am trying my very best to get into the mood of study. This semester I had to work harder as I didn't do well last semester.

Last Saturday was NSW's birthday, Happy belated birthday my dear friend.... I think Mang Liuz had sort of organized a suprise party for her on Sunday and it kinda worked out though the absentees occupied 60% of us. I don't know whether is her awareness is super low or she really don't know that they are celebrating for her, she fell for the suprise. Hahaha.... So sad that I couldn't join them. Hope she likes the pendant Kenny and Jeff get her..

I kinda miss mangliuz actually. They are my A-levels classmate and friends from KBU. We only know each other for more or less a year and yet we get so close to each other. It's really unexpected from everyone. Still remember the time when we always rush back and late to class? Because we had lunch and movie just in two or three hours break. FULLY UTILIZE!!

Mangliuz is also like FOOD DISCOVERY CHANNEL. Wherever there is nice food, you will definitely see the traces of us. From damansara to sunway, kepong, cheras, semenyih, klang..... I wonder how much we spent on petrol every week just for lunch. Even 15minutes break also we want to drive thru macD and ta bau... After lunch also must go and have macD ice cream though it's late for class. I still remember we actually organized one day trip to KL just to eat(I WASN"T THERE THAT TIME)!!

Other than food, mangliuz is also CEO OF GSC one utama. Almost all the movies throughout year 2006/2007 had been watched. Until we were desperate to watch some don't what nonsense crap so called horror movie!!! There is some of them go watch malay's movie also...Aduhhh.. Remember JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG?? Hahaha...

So nostalgic when think back the moments we all were together. Even now everyone is like far from each other but we still close and keep in contact. That's the best part of mangliuz. Not easy to get a group of friends like them where you can talk to everyone. Thanks everyone in Mangliuz....

Mangliuz Oldies

Most recent picture of us...It was 2007 i think...hehe..

P/S : I don't know why we are call mangliuz but i think the name starts from KBU Icon when we are doing the banner for NSW. Is it? Can anyone recall ar?

!@#$%^&*()

2008-07-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hell yeah... Today is the first day of my 2nd semester. Everything seems to be alright, at least I never sleep in the class. A good start though. I am freaking hhell bored that's why I am here to update my blog abit. I couldn't sleep!! Argh can someone please help me out?

Since I so free I want to list out what I want to do throughout my second semester. We will see how far I can make it.

*study consistently everyday for at least 2 hours.
*gym consistently for at least twice a week.
*sleep consistently?

I am bored till I don't know what can I say.....

Brisbane!! Here am I...

2008-07-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Brisbane, finally decided to settle down and blog something. As you guys know I went Brisbane for MASCA(some sports carnival for Malaysian students studying in Australia in Malay is Karnival Sukan Pelajar Luar Negara-Dodgy). This trip taught me lots thing and met lots of new people. I finally felt that I am really doing something good and great in Australia.

We were late for flight due to unexpected traffic jam, I overslept by a bit, some were PACKING THEIR LUGGAGES at the very last minutes. We made it just before 15minutes before the flight board. The flight took one and half hour to reach Brisbane. We don't really have anything for the first day, only those introductory, carreer talks, general briefing. I just remember the moment we reached King's College(one of the on campus in University of Queensland whiere we were accomodated), four of us are hunting for food.

By the way, Brisbane has very nice view and weather. I just love the weather. I can feel the heat of the sun, and sweat!! The place is totally like KL. The road, the houses, you can barely even see ang moh here..... And to get to the city you need to pop up into a ferry but I never got the chance to do so, too packed my schedule. Brisbane is EXACTLY like Malaysia. At night we had welcome BBQ, what's impressed me is the Uni of Queensland(UQ) itself. Very beautiful buildings, environments(more trees), I would love to study here more than ANU.

I actually consider the BBQ as pinic-ing as we sat on the plastic mat on the grass....

Events start on second day. Morning I had track and field 200m and 4x100m. Won silver for 200m but lost in relay. Lost in relay and got injured as well. I was like shit, I got badminton in an hour time. I can't even walk properly. I can only play the first match for badminton and forfeit my single to reserve my energy for women doubles. But I lost that as well due to my eager-ness to win. =(

Warming up... GO GALS!! (we were late cause took too long time to have breakfast..ended up kena marah from our coach---->the one sitting, Chia Pei)

The track and field events girls........ Hazel, Sher Reen, Amanda, Winnie, Jessw

After the victory of 200m....Yong sui~~

But I got to know lots of friend during the games, I actually got to know this cute guy also. Everyone thought I was in love with him. I was just admiring his good looking-ness and his humble-ness....Very good guy but no longer available. Probably if he is available I might proceed from where I am...haha.

My friend has events on the third day but not me, so I am just there to cheer for them and forgone the chance of going city. I am just too kind. Haha. Events for the day ended very late and all of us were late for the masquerade ball.

Supporting frisbee team....They won silver!!! Yayyyy..... Those in blue are from other state.... Malaysiaan are united....

Everyone rush back to the college to get ready. Girls who need to make up and everything actually took shorter time to get ready compared to guys. Don't know why are them so fussy. But I was very tired to actually attend the ball, and I have to rush everything. I don't like things go in this way. We had three course meal as our dinner and the food is errr...Speechless..... I will never like high class restaurant... I felt super FULL after I had all these.

Food served alternatively... So people beside you will get different food than urs.
Appetizer 1: Salmon with egg
Appetizer 2: Two small pieces of don't know what chicken(my appetizer)

Main Course 1: Grilled Salmon (my main course)

Main course 2 : Steak (my neighbour's)

Desser 1 : Cheese mousse cake

Dessert 2 : Chocolate mousse cake..SHADAAPP.... but very sweet(my dessert)

Sitting on my table...... Gordy, Veng Hong(not my table), Jessw, Alex, Sher Reen, Abel

Yeam with his cute suit..... Our dearest MSO president.....

Masked Sher and me in da bus...................... Pink? Red?

Winnie the ACT Idol, Jessw the runner, Sher the frisbee-er...

Sher, Katen(badminton friend), Sinyu(the cute badminton guy), Jessw...*shy*

Sze huey....My badminton partner.......We are da best right? Go Sze Huey....

CuteKaten...

All the badminton players..... everyone so on!!!! Saw who's beside me? *shy*

All the delegates from ACT after the ball......

The worst day is the last day when we are ready to go back to Canberra. Sher and me thought if we woke up early we might can dropped by city for awhile before fly to Sydney but we actually wasted our time waiting for all the guys to pack up. Then our flight delayed cause there is something wrong with the engine according to the pilot, but I actually saw the crew loading luggages onto the plane. JETSTAR what can I say.... Flight delayed for about an hour and we missed our bus to Canberra from Sydney. We bought new ticket and rush for the bus. Everyone was torn out.

LONELY holiday

2008-06-28T16:08:00.000-07:00

It's been a week after my exams over but I haven't really got the time to update my blog not even online. Everyone ended trying to contact me to see whether I am alright or anything happened to me or not. Looks like the inconsistency of me not online cause some people to worry. Thanks guy that's really very sweet of you people. The reasons I am not online is mainly because I was moving out from my last time place to my new place. HEAVEN!! Haha. Another thing is I am working that is why I don't really have time to do my things. I haven't even talk to my mum for a week. Oh ya, I got training everyday in the noon as well to prepare to go for MASCA in Brisbane next week.

Well, nothing really much happened through out this week. Everyone just finished their exams and my friends moslty went back to Malaysia left only four of us. I had been so bored for the past whole week, time is passing so slow now. It's like three weeks holiday for me whereas it is only a week. Maybe because we don't really have anything for holiday.

LONELY holiday.......

EXAMS OVER

2008-06-22T02:03:00.000-07:00

It's been two days after I finished my exams and now only I am free to sit down here and write something. Before I speak about what happened these two days, I wanted to apologize to everyone who read my blogs especially Anne, Siew Wui and Kelly who trusted me so much yet I disappointed them. I was bored during that time when I am writting the blog about going back due to exams. I started with my sister at first and I got so excited and post it on the blog. I know that this is childish and stupid, so please accept my APOLOGIES. Really sorry,please let me know if I can do anything to repay what I did.

Finally exams are over, I am totally stress free now. But this ain't a good thing as well because I don't know what to do other than working. Life is like going to be so bored. I don't know how am I going to survive through this winter break, mostly I think I am going to catch up with all the series and anime. So if you have any nice series, feel free to send it to me. I will definitely welcome you.

On last Friday after the last paper, I walked around in the city for about 6 to 7 hours excluding dinner time. Just feel like wasting time since time is so precious before this, and now time is like worthless. After the long day, I only bought a ten dollars dress. The opportunity cost for that dress is really high, I walked 6 7 hours for that. I was really tired. Saturday I went working in the noon till evening and night I had some so called room warming for one of my friends who just moved in one of the campus's hall(hall here referred to the hostel). Apparently everyone is just relaxing and celebrates after exams. Everyone gone crazy for that, imagine sixteen people with two small rice cooker.

I didn't manage to snap any photos that night, I think my new friends all are not camwhore like me. That is why I never dare to ask anyone for photos sessions. Well, sweet memories we saved it in the brain. I didn't go home that night, I stayed in my new accomodation which I will be moving in after two weeks. Can't wait for it. But actually I am moving out tomorrow from the hell place I am currently staying to another campus's hall in Weiling's room. She is going back Malaysia on Tuesday, and I will be using her place for two weeks.That will be damn fun. It's always what I want to be on campus.

OH ya, there is another funny thingy. People who see me around no matter friends or not, they will always ask me only one question. ' Ain't you feel cold? Your jumper is so thin' haha... Yea now is winter and the temperature is dropping from day to day. Yet I am still with my jumper where people usually wear during summer, authumn and spring. They think I am crazy. But the fact is, I am used to the cold or I shall say I am numb with the cold and also I don't have a thick jumper. Maybe I shall get one soon since everyone is complaining the same thing to me over and over again.

I better stop here now, guess you guys will be boring reading all the rubbish I said. I am tired after working as well, so see you soon in few days time. I am going to Brisbane next week, so this week is going to be so busy for me. I haven't even book the ticket back from Brisbane to Canberra. Wonder how am I going to come back on the 4th July. ARGHHHHH!!!

APOLOGIES

2008-06-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

HEY June doesn't have 31st...I was just joking around due to my boredom in the library....Gotta go back prepare for exam..I will have explaination for that after exam okay... ZILLIONS APOLOGIES to everyone!!!!!!

Half more to go

2008-06-16T21:40:00.000-07:00

Half of burden which bear by my shoulder have finally gone. Two more paper to go. I am not as stress as before this. The coming papers are all based on calculations, hopefully I can handle the questions. I really don't have any idea on how to improve my maths in two days. I will just go for my best rather than give up and flung it. Right Anne? I really didn't flung any of my paper. My economics paper this morning was pretty good though I didn't finish all the questions due to time shortage. But that was fine, most important thing is I know that I actually can answer all the questions. My time management is bad......

Few more days to go then I will be having a month holidays. Out of a month, four days I will be in Brisbane for sports events organised by MASCA(Malaysian something something student council association in Australia). The remaining days will be my full time working days, have to save money can't go anywhere. Hopefully I can see Kelly here with me. Then I won't be so bored and lonely since mostly of my friends going back Malaysia. How nice it will be if I am also one of them going back.

I bet lotsa people out there missing me so much. God~ I just did an unforgiven sin by not going back. SORRY guys...*perasan till da max* I shall start planning on how to fully utilize my holiday. Movies? Dramas? Series? Cook? Anyone please give me more and more idea on what I can do. I can't wait holiday to come but what can I do during holiday? Canberra will be like cemetary, so peace and quiet. *ooopss*

Crapping too much ain't going to contributes to my paper tomorrow. So tata....

Sudden thoughts

2008-06-14T19:24:00.000-07:00

One more week to go to set me free of exams. Can I endure through the week? Hope so I can make it to Friday's noon before I K.O. University's life ain't as easy as I thought, ain't as relax as I heard from others. It's a test on consistency of studying. If you are left out by a week, you still got hope to catch up. If you left out by two weeks, you better start burning midnight oil. If you miss lectures by three weeks, you give up to go lecture hall anymore. You start study by yourself but it doesn't really work out as efficient as I thought. I wasn't study consistently eventhough I am not going for lectures. This is why I am procrastinating at the worst now. Regrets? Yes I did.

The same thing happened to my friends. Everyone seems like hoping to pass only, or rather just flung the paper. That's what going on in my mind last night. Everyone wishes to more more time or studied harder. Some even thought of forfeiting $2500 and retake the subject-DROPPED WITHOUT FAILURE. Lots of insane ideas just suddenly popped out of no where. Obviously I am not the one going to do that, I am not here to waste my parents' money neither my time as well; quoted by anne. The only person I always hope to get scolded from, her words always wake me up from devilish. That's my sweetheart. How can I live without her?

Been thinking lots of thing these few days. Probably tired of staring at notes. Illusions and imaginations keep appearing in my brain. Makes me feel like I haven't been doing anything great for the past 19 years plus. I don't even have great future plannings like the others do. I just want to graduate as soon as possible and get back to my mum's side. Maybe I should start planning during this winter break. It's time to grow up.

Yewhoo

2008-06-12T04:56:00.000-07:00

I think I gone crazy already because I was smilling all the time since morning. Today I had my business accounting exam which I can actually do all the question. However, due to my smartness in misinterpreting the question, my HD going to say bye to me. The only hope now is that hope they will scale up the grades but it seems very unlikely. Sigh.

Anyways, this morning I met with this woman when I was on my way to campus. She was a PHD student doing law, 30 plus years old with a son. She asked me to lead her to campus to attend some conference. I had quite a good talk with her. One thing I like about Australia, people here are real friendly. We used to read in the essays and articles saying that Malaysian are very friendly, but after I came here seriously I don't see any friendly-ness in Malaysian. Even I admit myself is that as friendly as them but I am learning to be one of them. It's really happy that I can helped someone early in the morning and she appreciated what I did for her. The most important thing is she wished my good luck for my exams.

Though I didn't do well in my exam, I wasn't sad as I expected. I actually felt relief that I completed one of my finals. Just feel wasted that I misinterpret the question but it's alright. After that I spent my whole day in the library preparing for my next exam already. Really hope that times pass faster.. please please.....

Ermm, I actually got something wanted to say but I forgotten already. Anyways, the main thing is I am happy today. NO stress, RElaxx........

P/S : I am moving out next week!! Yippy

Study till sot liao!!

2008-06-10T20:13:00.000-07:00

Its a long long morning. I have been lazing and studying since 8 something. It seems like I wasn't productive as well today.Haih...I should have go to library and procrastinate.

I am having my first final paper tomorrow. I am so called prepared for it but I don't know how am I going to do. Just hope that everything will be fine. Please pray for me that I can do well. I don't want to screw up everything please please...

Well, actually what I want to say here is I think I am slowly recovered from last week incident. I don't want to bother what people say or think about me already. I will just do and go with my own opinion. Be myself.... Its meaningless to change yourself for others, if they don't like how you are, there is no point you hanging out with them. So let thing happens on how it should be. Right?

Yesterday I had some chat with Peiying, she gave some opinion about studying in canada. Since she might going over there I might consider going there as well if I am financially affordable. Must calculate the cost first, later my marginal cost exceed my marginal benefit my mum will slaughter me. But at the same time I want to exchange to UK as well since ngsiewwui will be going there but I don't think UK got actuarial studies.... Sad for you nsw...

okok, done crapping...It's time to get back to study now.. I will update more and more after my exam okay.... First semester going to end soon. My friends all complaining that this semester pass very fast, but I am different. I am happy that time pass so fast. This indicates that I am nearer to the date that I will be back home...home sweet home~~~~~I miss my bed...

But my bed is now being occupied by my sister's friend who will be staying with my family for 2 months. She can't get accomodation like me!!!! That's why I can understand her feeling very well. That's why she is sleeping on my bed now if not..............My bed is not everyone can sleep oneokay...Need the Permission from the OWNER=ME......

I......

2008-06-08T18:19:00.001-07:00

Something unhappy happened again.
I am down for once more.
Tears finally dropping out of my eyes.
I couldn't stand this anymore by myself.
I really hope to find someone who I can rely on.
I no longer know who to trust who not to trust.
Apparently, I was just something that people used to fill up their time.
Something that they will call you when they need you.

Don't ask me why I like this or why I like that.
Now is definitely the wrong timing for you to ask me because that will be too late to ask bout it.
Or maybe actually there is no one is listening to me all the time.
I was talking to myself all the time.
Am I having a good life here?
For the moment I just want to see my mum and a hug from her for to me cry out.

Barista

2008-06-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

Whow, today is like long day for me. It seems like lotsa thing happened today. I woke up quite early today because I thought of study a while before I go for work. But ended up I was lazying around and watched anime. I should have saved the time for sleep.

Anyways, today work went quite until the last 2 hours, I accidentally broke a glass due to my clumsiness. My mood was totally spoilt by it. Before that I was already not really happy, don't know why. Maybe because I keep felt something is wrong but I don't know what. Everytime I go work I sure feel that way, I feel like people are thinking that I am dumb, that I couldn't do a single thing. OMG I am being so paranoia nowadays...

Well, last Monday I went to coffee course. I did learn something within the four hours. At least I am no longer a coffee noob and I can make coffee now. Please I don't mean those coffee made using 3 in 1 coffee powder with hot water okay. What I am doing is really using coffee machine, with coffee beans grinding machine. Sound pro right? I finally found that making coffee is quite fun and cool.
See? Imagine you making coffee with that...COOLL
Let's see how many coffee I can make now......

CAPPUCINO
Coffee with a layer of float on top. NICEE....My favourite..

CAFE LATTE
Don't call it latte in Europe country, they will serve you with hot milk......

Long/Short Black
The coffee without milk...PUre caffein..

MOCHA
Coffee that come with Chocolate.....My favourite also

Flat White
The only coffee you found in Australia? I never heard of flat white before I came to Australia. It's actually almost the same with cafe latte just that they put it in different cup? I would say this is slighly stronger than cafe latte but not as strong as cappucino. Try it...

Haha, I can really make coffee isn't it.... I am still practicing to make some shape on top of it... I need more time.

Relief

2008-06-06T16:56:00.000-07:00

Anne and Siew Wui said what I did wasn't being rude. It's just that I know I am not going to see her in short run that's why I am leaving her notes. Their words really make me feel better because at least there is someone who agree with what I did. Really don't have the intention of being rude. Don't bother what others said as long as you didn't do what they said. Thankz babes.... Love you..Muakzz

DUmbneSS

2008-06-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

OMG I did something stupid again today. What the hell is wrong with me? I am moving out from my current living place soon. So I wanted to tell my housemate that I am moving out but I know I can't get the chance to talk to her at least for few days. When she is home I am not, when I am home she is working. So I decided to leave a note to her saying that I am moving out soon. My intention was just wanted to inform her as soon as possible so that she can know and think what she can do with it.

But when I told my friends about what I did, everyone got a damn big shock. Everyone showing me the same face reaction. I was like, ' Shit! Did I do anything wrong?' They said it's very rude for me to do that because I didn't show my respect to her. But that wasn't the thing that running in my brain when I am writing the notes. I was like OMg what the hell I did again.

I wrote the note this morning and I was absent minded the whole day. I don't know what the hell I am doing even when I am working. It might seems rude that I just leave her the note in that way but that's really not my intention. Anyhow, I still think that I should leave her the note because I don't know to let her know too late or be the one to know from others. Just that maybe it's true that the way I do it is rude.

I felt damn bad and guilty for what they have told me. But the truth is not that I don't show my respect to her, in fact I think I respect her that's why I am leaving her a note rather than she knows it from others. I will apologize to her due to my rudeness and talk to her again in personal. But yeah, I just want to let her know what's going on after all.

Anyways, I am moving out soon so I shall be happy and party over it!! But exams coming real soon which is next week. So ya don't think about it, everything will turn out fine.... Better don't screw up my exams!

Fat

2008-06-05T04:33:00.000-07:00

I fat already! where is my dietician? How to lose 10kg?

paiseh

2008-06-02T07:26:00.000-07:00

I got exams coming next week....no more post in short run....paiseh paiseh but will update myself asap..

2008-05-29T05:52:00.000-07:00

I really very unhappy now.......

FAT!

2008-05-26T16:54:00.001-07:00

OMG life is so sucky now... Exam periods are coming real soon and I got sick this very moment? What the hell.... I vomitted on Sunday night due to too long hours of starving. So when I had somefood i threw out everything, I think my stomach was rejecting everything that I ate. That's the reason who brought me sorethroat. I hate sorethroat, so painful!!

Last night my aunts video call me, when she saw me only already saying I got fatter. Heartbreak straight....I know I got fatter but I also don't know why I can get fat..Maybe I eat too much? Or I didn't exercise? Oh no, I don't want to become big bao when go back Malaysia..Pleasee.... Must start to control my diet and do more frequent exercise....But the thing is how far my determination can go? 1 day? or maybe 1 hour?

Was thinking is there any other alternative way that can reduce my weight? Aduhh, take pills? NO way, that is so dangerous. If there is any side effect how? I don't want to die so early. Exercise? Yea maybe I should but I merely have time for that now. exam is more important than everything now.... Eat less? You think big eater like me can meh? Saw food only I already like hungry ghost fighting for food though I am not hungry... You see, like that how to reduce my bloody weight? Must figure something about it....If continue like this, I think none of you can recognise me when I go back....

So if you all got any good recommendation on diet please let me know ya.. You don't want to lose such a good friend of yours right? Aren't you? I knew that...hehehe.. Remember sharing is caring.... muakzz..

Fantastic!!

2008-05-24T15:31:00.000-07:00

I found this clip. This is so amazing. Genius are always around us....I hope I can be 10% of him also enough already... Then my actuarial is saved...No need to stress out for the nonsense stupid maths..sob sob....

anyway check this out....

Mathemagician

Close your big mouth after seeing that..Maybe you can try out the way he squares all the numbers.. who knows you are the next one on my post?
hahaha.... Give your best try

First tag eveR

2008-05-21T15:48:00.000-07:00

Wahh.... I kena tag from people le..... lai lai let's see what I say.....

1. Real name: Yunn Yi, Wong

2. Nickname: Jesses

3. Married: Err, nopee
4. Male or Female: Female
5. High school: SMK Taman Klang Utama(bet u don't know where the hell is this school)
6. College: KBU International College(Forget it, it's not KDU)
7. Short or long hair: Short-Long-Short-Long
8. Are you a health freak: I conclude myself as health freak

9. Height: 160cm. im growing taller
10. Do you have a crush on someone: Temporary nopee

11. Do you like yourself: Love ourselves before others do
12. Piercings: Yeahh..

13. Righty or Lefty: I am on the right way!!

FIRST
14. Surgery: Nahh....
15. Piercing(s): Yeapppe
16. Person you see in the morning: My family on my phone's wallpaper
17. Award: GOD awarded my parents to me
18. Sport you joined: Long list....

19. Pet: POnpoN
20. Vacation: Couldn't remember..I was very young back then
21. Concert: Never and will not ever
22. Crush: Ssshhhhh

CURRENTLY
23. Eating: Cereals...yumm
24. Drinking: Milk
25. I'm about to: SESAT for the day
*SESAT = Study Endless Stop All Temptation

YOUR FUTURE
26. Want kids: YEAPP!!! I lovee themm
27. Want to get married: WAnT for the sake of my baby
28. Careers in mind: POweRful and EliGibLe career wOmaN

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
29. Lips or eyes: NONE..Sob..
30. Hugs or kisses: HUgxx
31. Shorter or taller: TalleR??!
32. Romantic or spontaneous : CaN I have b0Th?
33. Sensitive or loud: I hate sentitive! So loud?
34. Trouble maker or hesitant: Definitely not either one

HAVE YOU EVER
35. Kissed a stranger: Too sHy for thaT...*shy*
36. Drank bubbles: BUbbles can drink ar?
37. Lost glasses/contacts: one of my hobbies
38. Ran away from home: NO money...So don't dare
39. Liked someone younger: Of course...little kids Im sayin...
40. Liked someone older: TAda, my papa n mama
41. Broken someone's heart: All the time without notice...
42. Been arrested: Maybe I Should try robbing
43. Cried when someone died: Depends who died...
44. Liked a friend: Love all my darlings n babes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
45. Yourself: Strongly believe
46. Miracles: YES, wanted to witness it and experience if possible
47. Heaven: I will be going there after I RIP
48. Santa claus: LIke santa lots but the existence....emm
49. Angels: always with me...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*
50. Is there one person you want to be with right now: My mum?
51. Do you believe in God: HAve most faiTh wit GoD
52. Tag 5 people: Tag everyone who read my blog!!!

Don't ruin your day!

2008-05-21T15:30:00.000-07:00

OMG, I lost my business assignment which I have to pass up yesterday the night before.
What the hell!!!!!! I spent more than 24 hours on that nonsense report and now you are telling me I lost it? ARGHHHHHHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually downloaded the file from the internet and I thought it's saved on the desktop. Apparently, it wasn't there. It's just a temporary file which I choose to open, no matter how many times I saved also it will gone once you closed it. That's what I did. After few hours of last brush up, I am ready to start my finance then go to the bed. I realized I can't find the file when I try to reopen it to double check everything.

I got so damn panic and wanted to cry already. I went to get Alex to help me sort out the problem but if the file is deleted means it's gone forever. In the other words, I have redo. Since I have draft with me, I no need to start from zero again. But the second time ain't as good as the first one. I had already lost my mood and lazy to think bout it again. I just want to finish it as soon as possible then go sleep.

This is not end yet. Since I finished my report quite late, I didn't manage to revise for my finance quiz. Ended up I put in the wrong formula in calculation. Another bad thing happened. Then when I went computer lab to print my stupid assignment, I don't know what the hell is wrong with the microsoft excel, it turned out four blank pages and wasted my printing quota. I was so pissed yesterday morning!!

Anyway, when I think back everything. It's actually all my own fault. I didn't check whether my file is in my document or not, I shouldn't study last minutes for my finance, I should double check print preview before I print. Yeahh, I lost my ear phone cover the same morning as well.
Make me feel so unlucky....

Apparently my day didn't turn out bad the whole day. I went to attend this language exchange high tea in the evening with my friends. From there I get to know more people, I get one step closer with my coursemate as well. I think I shouldn't isolate myself from them too much. I need communications. I don't want to be loner!!!!!

That high tea thingy actually brighten up my day. Tomorrow is Thursday already, time is passing so fast. I still feel like it's just the begining of the week. Finals are coming soon in less than one month time. I don't know whether I can cope with it or not, but pray hard that I can go through this.

DarE devIL

2008-05-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

Another week gone just like that and again i didn't do anything for this week. Everytime when i feel like blogging about something, I realized that I actually got nothing I can blog about what I did or what. Does this tells that I am having some sort of meaningless life? Or just some dull life? But I always said that this is definitely not what I want yet I didn't do anything to make a change.

Anyways, I think today I got something I can talk about. I went working today, I was stoning the whole day dreaming, don't know what I was doing. Probably because too tired? I guess so. Hmm, so we can actually just grab any drinks that we want at my working place. You can actually request them to make you a coffee as well. So after I sign off, I wanted to have some coffee. I went ans ask this lady at the bar 'Can you please make me a cup of mocha?'. I saw that lady before and I think I know she is one of the management staff, probably with some sort of position. But at the same time my brain was teling me that maybe she is just a full time worker that worked for quite some time.

I don't know why I go ask her make me some coffee though I know that she is quite a bitchy lady from her face and from the way she performs herself. After I asked that question then only I thought of ' shit, am I asking the wrong person?' Cause I think the moment she heard what I asked, her face reaction like abit shock? Then there is this guy turn up and said that he will make it for me. Then the lady asked me to do some cleaning for the sake of my mocha though I signed off.

Then just now I was asking my friend, who is her actually. She was telling me that she probably is one of the owners or something. But one thing is for sure, she is some BIG PEOPLE over there and I as the newbie asking her to make me a cup of coffee...How DARING is that? Who can do that? My friend said she was so shock that I asked the lady to make me coffee. She also know that this lady is not easy to deal with but again I didn't know. When I am asking her for the coffee, I know my brain was telling me 'don't ask her don't ask her' but my body never replies to the impulse sent by the brain. My mouth just asked her as if it is reflex actions........

Now when I think back also I felt a bit nervous, I never think that I will be doing this. Anyway, can't blame me. I really don't know who the hell she is. But I wasn't feeling bad for what I did anyway. I did nothing wrong, I just asked for coffee which is allowed. Since she is the one working in the bar, of course I ask her.

But I think it's actually not a big deal unless she is the one making it big deal. We shall see how she will treat me in future. Then we will know whether she is over with today or not.....

SO you I am DARING?

CRAP....

2008-05-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

16th May 2008
16:55
Home

Just done working, wanted to start my assignment in no time. Today I don't know why but I am in happy and happening mode. Maybe because everything went well when I am working. NO bad things happened. At the same time, I figured how to do my assignment at least half. So ya I am going to complete it in a while. HOPEFULLY.

I just got back my economics quiz the other day. I knew I screwed it, I only get 4/10. What a genius I am. But nevermind, I think I will try to score it better next time. At least, it motivated me to work harder and harder. Mum said, as long as you tried your best and learn from your mistake, it's good enough. That's what we talk about learning and education. Her words reduce my tension level from the peak to average. Thanks mum. Love you.

I can't post much thing here as I want to go complete my assignment. So I will be talking to all of you again maybe tomorrow okay. Oh ya, I want to go for holiday in the year end, anyone want to join me out there? Let's plan something adventurous and challenging? Must try go beyond our limit......BUNGEE JUMP?

See you guys
END
17:05

Running out of time

2008-05-13T00:52:00.000-07:00

13th May 2008
17:53
Fenner Hall Computer Lab

Today I for four hours of lectures but what I know is I only listen to about 45 minutes of lecture. For 15minutes I was fishing in the hall, waiting for time to pass only. Another three hours, I was rushing for my uncomplete assignment dueing at 4pm. Shall I say rushing or copying? Maybe I put it this way, I was refering my friend's working. At least I tried to understand it first? I don't know, I think I getting dumb. Or maybe I am dumb. Sigh. University life is so bad!!!! Doesn't really enjoy it also.

Another thing is last night my friend and me were talking about one friend online. That friend was with us using the computer lab as well. Suddenly she was looking at my friend's conversation because we were laughing laughing. Scared both of us to the max. After that I feel bad that we didn't let her know what we talking. But we weren't talk anything bad about her, just that something that will make everyone feel weird if she knew that. What the hell am I talking? Till now I still feel bad, I don't know whether she saw what we talked. I am worried that she angry with me, but she looks like isn't the girl who will get angry with people for small matter. I feel so bad..... like she is my friend but I never let her know what happened..sob sob

next week got another assignment due, and I didn't even start anything yet. I always procrastinate. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I do something right ever since I am here in Australia? I some more got finals coming in less than 30 days and I haven't even start my revision. ARGH!! Things might not as bad as what I saw actually, I just need some lessons on time management. I shall really start to be serious in doing everything and stop being playful. I shall learn from you NSW, so persistent to study no matter what. HWC you also should start study and stop arranging your endless notes. WYY you should stop wasting time and concentrate in your studies. Why can't someone scold me and wake me up? ANNE where are you? Faster wake me up......

END
18:12

Midnight post

2008-05-11T10:51:00.000-07:00

Now is 4am in the midnight and I am still awake. I was studying. Suddenly I feel like saying something out when I listening to songs. Hmm abit emo? It's been few days I never update about myself. I was so called kind of busy these few days, study, sports, hang around.

Today is a lovely day. MOTHERS DAY!! Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there. Hope every mother enjoyed their day... I couldn't celebrate anything with mum so what I can do is just say that 'Love you mum....muakz' THANK YOU for everything. MIsS you

This week for me quite lots of unhappy things happened. I didn't get the result that I wanted in exam, I screwed up my quiz which I am not supposed to. I couldn't play well in sports. I couldn't concentrate during lectures. Sigh, unlucky. That's not the end. There is another thing follows up.

Well, I started working as waitress in this cafe on the past Friday, Saturday and today. It was really tough for me I guess. I was really scared and nervous not because of the job I am doing but I think more to the environment? How will I expect that I will be working with all the whites one day. Their fluent English totally stunned me, I was a bit slow to catch what they trying to say. Things got tougher when my clumsy illness strikes me. I just spilt drinks today. DOUBLE STRIKE somemore. Then those people at the bar showed their black face to me making me feel so bad and sad. Everything just didn't go well. Even when I cleaning also I can dropped the knifes and forks all. Today was really a bad day for me. I wasn't really in the mood of working the whole day. SOb sob.....For that moment I really feel like hugging someone, I was so scared and panic.

Anyways, that's my day for today. Everything went to work. I didn't even have much time for study. That is why I am still awake now. TO STUDY!!! Hope so that I can cope everything as soon as possible. Finals are coming in a month time. Not going to waste too much time on others. I don't want to screw up my finals again. If not I think that time you'll see my face at headlines. GOSH, university life = begining of stressful life.... Ain't it supposed to be a relax one?

Success comes from failure

2008-05-05T06:07:00.000-07:00

Failure always come with success

if u want success u must go through failure

people can handle success very easily

but what about failure?

human take success as a good one

and take failure as a bad one..

but do people ever think that failure

is also part of the road to success?

some people just can't take failure as a process...

they take it as the end..

i wonder how many people in the world can

take failure as part of success?

am i the person that can do that?

or i am the person that take failure as the end?

i want to b a successful person who had

come over lots of failure in my path...

only these can make me grow up and b a matured thinking person..

i just need to figure a way

to accept the failure that i will meet.....

This was written by me I think a year ago? I can't even recognise this piece of work. I didn't know that I can write such thing.

UltimatE perSon EveR

2008-05-02T17:37:00.000-07:00

On 3rd of May 1964, a ultimate man was born to the land of Earth. Today is his forty-four years old birthday. He is my BELOVED DAD. There, the photo of him with all the tatoos around him.Looks like gengster or mafia right? Don't doubt he is my father but definitely not gengster. He is the most lovely Dad in the love. Don't judge a book by it's cover.

It's my bad that now only I recall his birthday. Sorry Dad. For the past twenty years, I never really celebrate any of his birthday as he doesn't like us to do all the nonsense celebration thingy. He is just so cool and take everything easy. For him, birthday is just nothing.

He came all the way long from Pahang to work when he is at the age of twelve. I was really impressed with his brave decision. That is the period when she get to know mummy and get married.

Another important person of mine, MUMMY!!!

Belows are their master pieces of hard work........

Their darling daughters.......Looks alike? People always say we don't look alike.

My GOD this dummy looking guy..... Dota, maple story whatever games freak who always make my Dad gets on his nerves.

TaDA.... GOLD CUP of da house, everybody loves IVAN.....

Dad has been working hard for the sake of us, to make sure his family lives in a comfort environment all the time. He is really a responsible and humour man. I love him the most when he is being funny, but please better don't joke around with him when you saw his face is black. You will get thunder storm!!!!!!

DADDY

*hot temper

*like to disturb people

*fat with big belly

*like to sleep

*used to smoke but stopped (His determination is the one I admire)

*like to talk crap

P/S : That's all I can say about him. I can't really think anything bout him now. Keke.

Hey Dad,

You have been working so hard for all of us, yet you still need to work hard now to feed us. Please remember that you definitely need a good rest as well. Don't overwork yourself! Later me only will be heartache. You don't want that right. I am still your lovely daughter isn't it? Haha.

THANK YOU very much for giving us whatever you have.

THANK YOU for your caring loves.

THANK YOU for educates us to be a great person.

THANK YOU for being a best Dad and spend all your time with us.

THANK YOU for everything.

WE LOVE YOU ALL THE TIME.

I LOVE YOU!!

This is our very first family photo ever took. This is at the airport when I am leaving to Australia for further studies. All above are my family member include the woman at the rightmost, who is my maid for eight years. She is not just a maid of us but part of us. Family SWEET family...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!!!

May all your wishes come true~ STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY ya....

I will celebrate with you when I go back at the year end... MUAKZZzz.......

Week of UNi

2008-05-02T16:54:00.000-07:00

After a long long week, I finaaly can set myself free and sit in front of the laptop. I was having my mid semester exam throughout the whole month. The most nonsense I ever had is, before I end my mid semester exam, I already got my timetable for my finals. This means that I don't have any time to rest and I shall start preparing for it.

This is the first week of lecture after two weeks break, everyone is so reluctant to go back to school, still adjusting their mode into study mode. But lecturers all won't wait for you, they still going around very fast as usual. Assignments and quizes are like mountains waiting for me. Oh my god, I wonder how can I go through all the stress. I am going to be crazy.

Anyway, there is one more month to go for winter break. Most of my friends are going back to Malaysia only two three of us will be around. I will get myself to work and learn something during the month. I can't wait until December to go back. I miss home again. Last night, my aunt from Singapore called me. She knows that I am having hard time and trying to comfort me, it's been some time that I didn't see her. It's so touched that she called me juz for that, tears almost drop out again.

My days here like getting dull and dull. I finally can understand why they said there is no life in Canberra. Like last night, we wanted to have dinner together then a movie break after that. It s so so so hard for us to get into a restaurant, cause yesterday is Friday and it's the day where everyone will come out to chill. Ended up we can only have Nando's which we already had it for fews day in a row. Bored with it. Canberra is really very small, I walk the whole city in a day probably lesser than that. Then we went for Iron Man. There is some difference between Australia and Malaysia cinema, they are free seating but their chairs are so so so so comfortable. Then when the movie is showing some part which amazed the audience, the audience will clap hand to show their respect to the director. So different from Malaysia.

Oh ya, the pass Wednesday was Melissa 21st birthday. Hope she enjoyed our dinner and cake. I love that cake!!!!!!!!! But no pictures. Sob sob. Anyway, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MELISSA!!! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE....HAVE FUN WITH US!!!

Well, I think I shall go back to study now. Not much thing I can blog about. Probably I shall find something interesting to post. You gotta stay tune for it!!!!!!

HEaven-like III

2008-04-30T05:55:00.000-07:00

Hey, let's continue with my Sydney third day trip if not Kelly might have slaughter me in the middle of night for not posting it. The next post then only will be saying what I did for the past few days.

So the third day of Sydney, I am again supposed to wake up early in the morning and went for morning swim with the others but, due to the extreme tiredness we had the day before, everyone overslept. I wasn't overslept just too lazy to wake up. By the tie we are done and get ready, it's time for me to meet Kelly. YAY.....Finally can see her after waiting for so long, that's another reason why I am in Sydney, Kelly.

The funny thing about us is, I mixed up the place where we supposed to meet each other, MacDonalds. I thought there is only one MacDonalds near by Meriton but actually there is lots. So all the calling and waiting process took us for half an hour just to see each other and give each other a big big big big big hug....So sweet....

Then we went for curry in the morning for breakfast. I was craving for curry ever since I am in Australia, I mean those really spicy that you can only get in Malaysia. The curry smells good~~ Without wasting much time, we start our shopping journey. This the first time I really shop and race with time. We have to go around all the places and there is not much time left for us, as I need to catch bus by 6pm to go back Canberra.

See what we had bought for the whole day walk...... That was so so so tiring with raining day somemore@.@

This is the first jumper that I saw then I love it already...I somemore think twice whether I should buy or not. But since that I am in Sydney already and I am not going to shop much in Canberra, so I said bye to 35 dollars..

The main reason I am doing shopping in Sydney is I wanted to get winter cloths for myself. Winter is coming and yet I am not prepared for it. So this jumbo jumper became my WINTER collection....

I love white. That is why when I saw this I like it already but maybe not that crazy yet...Just a normal shopping bag which cost me 20 dollars....hehe quite worth it? You like it?

Cardigan #1 in my cabinet...

Nowadays I don't know why but I like strips alots but stil checker is still my favourite.... This shirt looks so cool..

Deng deng deng deng deng... The most meaningful and the best one I have bought in Sydney is this bag. Me and Kelly both own one. This is our friendship bag according to her. We like this bag very very much until we are crazy enough to keep posing with the bag in front of the mirror considering want to buy or not. Ended up, we broke....... But we appreciate the bag soooo much and of course it means we appreciate each other as well. Right Kelly? Knew you going to love it.

Well, in between of our shopping race, we did stopped by for some light high tea. We went to this cupcake shop which sells very very cute cupcake and their cupcakes were nice too especially with chocolate.... The first thing you will say when you actually wat that is 'Oh My Godddd!!'

Mine is choc brownie at the left...Kelly's blackforest at the right... YUmmmy....

Let's get on the feast!!!

Pretty Kelly with her best ever friend....Muakzzz

Haha. Other than cupcakes, there is this place in Sydney which is so famous for their egg tarts. EGG TARTs!! My favourite, I knew the existence of this place before I came, that is why I am craving for it since the first day. It's been so long I never eat egg tarts except for second day when we went and had dimsum, I had tarts there too. Unfortunately, I forget to take any photos for that, I think because I can't wait to eat already. The tart was really nice, but as Kelly said if it's hot it would be perfect. Right beside the tarts selling shop, there is this creme puff also very very very very very nice... This time the puffs were really hot, it burnt my tougue!!!

After the whole day walk, I finally get back to Meriton to meet up with my others friend and get ready to head back to the dull boring Canberra. Today was a great day for me, I can even smile widely alone for nothing. But the most annoying part happened when I got on to the bus. I was sitting at the back alone, the last row of the bus. There was this couple sitting in front of me, and giving me free show throughout the whole night. I was like what the hell and got so irritated by them. Don't think aside, they were just kissing and hugging each other. But their kissing wasn't silence kissing, I can hear them kissing so loud even when I am napping. Not only that, they somemore keep pushing the chair towards the back and I was awake thoudsand times because of that. How annoyed I am... My face was so so black after I came down from the bus, that's what my friend realized and told me.

ARghhhh, my day just spoilt by this unknown stupid couple!! I somemore under 18 now.... Better get home and wash my eyes and rest........

Emotionious

2008-04-26T19:53:00.000-07:00

I am supposed to post about the third day I had in Sydney with Kelly but I am seriously don't really have time to post and upload any photos about it. I am so busy preparing for my exams and stressing over it. Sorry Kelly for making you wait so long yet today I am still not going to post anything about it. I think the next post will do. Really hope so. Sorry Kelly. Now, suddenly I felt emo that is why I am writing this post here without any pictures.

Life should be getting better for me in Australia after the Sydney trip, where me and others friends started to get close with each other. However, I still feel that there is something missing. During the holiday, what I did is just go library study, reached home have my meals, online then sleep. That's my routine now. Until today I am so bored of it, it gives me the feeling of empty. Am I going to stay like this throughout the three years? PLease don't kill me that way please.

Canberra is just so dull. I think I must hooked on something and make myself more hectic so that I won't be thinking anything. I started to be emotionious. Or maybe the environment as in the place I am living now is the main cause of what I feeling now? I think the possibility is quite high. Must be the reason!!

Anyway, I am not complaining that I am having very bad life now. Just that I am not satisfied with it. How sad. The solution would be moving out of the house? Yeahh.....I can't wait for that day to come. I applied for the on-campus acomodation, so please pray hardly for me that I can get the hall I wanted. If not, I will be dying here throughout the whole year....

Done emo, today is Gordon's birthday. So happy 20th Birthday Gordon.......Have a nice day and hope you like your birthday present from us. The ULTIMATE G-STAR RAW jacket...

Heaven-like II

2008-04-20T01:05:00.000-07:00

The second day in Sydney I woke up around 6am. This was when the girls had their own plan~ We woke up early in the morning to go swimming and sauna because we don't want the guys to be around. We are too shy to show off our body *shy*shy*. It's been ages I didn't swim!! Only Sher Reen, Weiling and me went to swim. Three of us were too obsess with weight. Girls... But the best thing wasn't about the swimming, it's the jacuzzi pool and sauna. I felt so damn relax till I can sleep off anytime. I don't even want to leave the jacuzzi pool. So comfortable. But one thing I realized about Australia swimming pool is, they have higher percentage of chlorine in the water compared to Malaysia. My eyes got irritated because the chlorine was too strong.

Sher Reen and me after the 6am swim, jacuzzi and sauna.....Do we look better?

Do Weiling and me look slimmer? We swam lots.......

What's next after swim? A cup of coffee~~made by Weiling
Three of us were gossiping at the balcony enjoying our hot coffee..

DIM SUM DIM SUM!! My very first dim sum breakfast in Australia. I miss Dim Sum so much, the last time I ate was the day when I am flying to Australia. I wonder how it will be the Dim Sum here. We had our breakfast at this HongKong restaurant(if I am not wrong) nearby Meriton World Tower. It looks good from the outside. Don't judge the book by it's cover!! I was quite disappointed actually. It is not as nice as I thought, probably it's because it is Australia still. Overall it was just average I can say. The worst thing was their service. They definitely need workers badly. Everytime when I asked for something, they will be telling me 'please hold on, I will get another person to come'. By the time the another person came, I already don't feel like eating.

Like I mentioned in the last post, the main event for today is BONDI Beach. We are going to the beach~ We are going to the beach~ Oh beach!! I actually took a small nap while I am waiting for the others to get ready to the beach after breakfast. I was so so tired, I guess it's because of the morning swim. We took train to Westfield Bondi Junction, huge shopping mall which we will need to pass by in order to go Bondi beach. Something fantastic I found out is the train is different here. They have double decker train here. New thing to me. Maybe I am just exaggerating about things that are so common but never see before. Sorry if it's lame. So our plan is like go for a shop before we start our sun bathing. OMG!!

Upstairs and Downstairs

The middle level

Photos craze....

Westfield Bondi was indeed quite big shopping mall like One Utama in Malaysia, but there is nothing much I can shop on, another thing is the things are ermm ya kind of expensive. I couldn't afford that. So most of the time I am just doing window shoppings, how bored. Probably I am tired also, but I can see that some of us also bored. Just waiting time to go beach only. Keke.

Time's up. Bondi beach!! Very quickly we took bus there. The weather was so so so windy. If you aren't standing properly, you can really fall down. I am no joking and the waves were like so strong. There is even signboard showing strong current and live guard discouraging people to swim. Due to the strong wind and cold weather, the girls decided not to jump down into the seawater. It is really insane for people to get into the sea in such weather. We just sit by the beach blocking the wind. Can't even open our eyes to see the view. Pathetic~ However, the guys were really insane. I don't know from where they got the idea to go swim. Sitting at the side with clothes already killing me, they were like half naked and dashed into the water...Woohooo.... I can felt the coldness went through every gland of my body for them. THEY'D LOST THEIR MIND!!

The first view when you jumped down from the bus.

When walking towards the beach....Closer shot

The wind was blowing so strongly and so cold....Can you feel it? We were waiting for someone I think...

Everyone is soooo excited.....

The other side of the beach....I was sitting there.... This picture is so cool...

We saw sunset also...Just nice our timing.....The view here really amazing....

Insanes getting ready for winter swim....

COLD~~~~~

FROZEN already I think......

Me~Sher Reen~Wei Ling

Sitting on 5 star apartment's towel and blocking the wind hardly...How to enjoy the view? Open eyes only the sand will kiss our eyes. Aiks, couldn't see Mellisa in full!! Bad photographer......

OKay okay, highlight of the day. Done beach-ing, though the wind was annoying but actually it's quite comfortable to sit there. Hehe. Next thing that turned up is dinner! We went to HURRICANES in Bondi. The name already sounds so powerful, what else about the food? This one we have to made reservation earlier though. Thirteen of us ordered PORK RIBS(there is another two friends of Chua from Newcastle joined us), the nicest food there? I am not so sure, I just followed what they order only.

Full racks of pork ribs....Delicious*drooling* It is so huge that every two person share one full rack of it even the guys are sharing...

If you don't believe how huge it is, you can compare now with Nick's face.....REALLY BIG!!

Since we are paying so much for it, we even served with napkin. They actually will tie it for us but due to the excessive amount of us, we prefer doing it to save some time. Gordon-the only guy who eat full rack of the pork ribs......BIG EATER!!! Let's start the FEAST~~

After the feast....Everything was so clean....Yummmy*lickin fingers*

Saw all the bones? Shining........

Really the dinner was a fantastic one. I never had such a nice dinner in my life before. PORK RIBS PORK RIBS!! I will definitely go back there again. NO DOUBT! Everyone was so satisfied with it. This really brighten up my day.

After that, we went back to apartment to clean up ourselves and ready to visit another 'buzz' of Sydney, OPERA HOUSE. Opera House is just like our KL tower and Twin Tower in Malaysia. It symbolises Australia.

Opera House is just at the back.....

Complete group photos........Melvin, Alex, Weiling, Me, Sher Reen, Chua, Pearlyn, Gordon, Mellisa, Nick and Ryan.

I think the bridge at the back is named Sydney Bridge or something. Not too sure......Cool bridge....

Actually Opera House really got nothing much for us to hang around, so we started with all the crazy photo shots....12345678 cutie cute....

Gordon is so strong that he can actually carry Nick and Mellisa at the same time.....Buff guy and gym freak....

SWEET SWEET couple....

Owwhhh......

Everyone got so tired and wanted to go back rest so much after that. It's 12am already. Tomorrow will be our shopping day and definitely my day! I am going to meet Kelly. Yay......

P/S : Just ignore the message below as this is just To PAULINE LIM POH LING

Aunty Lim, you very troublesome. Already mentioned your name you somemore not happy with it. Need pictures somemore. I will post the ugliest one. Keke.....

Heaven-like I

2008-04-19T02:59:00.000-07:00

TaDAaa...I haven't been update my blog for few days and I knew that Kelly is so anxious to wait for my upcoming blog. I was waiting for photos from my friends so that I can upload some for you guys to have a look that is why I am late for the new post. Sorry for making you all wait so long for it.

Well, I am currently having mid semester holiday for my first semester. So what I did is, I went to Sydney for three days trip. Sounds cool right? I never expect that there will be one day I will be in Sydney. I was so happy and excited about it especially when I know that I am going to meet Kelly there. I so wanted to meet someone who I actually know and familiar with ever since I stepped on the land of Australia.

So on the Monday morning, eleven of us took bus to Sydney at 8am. It took about three hours to reach Sydney. Along the way, I was getting more excited and keep singing only. My friend, Weiling who was sleeping beside me I think couldn't sleep well because of my "sweet&sexy" voice? I really never realized about that until Sher Reen told me that she heard someone is singing. Sher Reen was sitting two rows in front of me. OMG! I didn't know that I was that excited. Sorry guys...

What happened next is, we reached Sydney. With eleven people and all the luggages, we walked to Meriton World Tower which is 15minutes nearby I guess. You can sense the difference between Sydney and Canberra once you stepped down from the bus. There are all skyrockets around us, bunches of people walking by like rushing to somewhere for something very important, even the birds in Sydney is more than in Canberra. What a hectic city! Canberra is just so dull, you hardly see bunches of people here.

So ya, the main thing I wanted to say here is not about how hectic the city is but the apartment which will shelter eleven of us. Meriton World Tower, remember this name! It is the tallest building in Sydney, made up of 74 floors. It is also rated as five stars apartment with laundry equipments, kitchen utensils, safe box, and all the things that a house should have are provided. It is even more complete than the house that I am currently staying. GODNESS! They even have heated pool, sauna, spa and gym. Can you imagine that you actually living in heaven? This is the first time I stay in five stars apartment. I think my parents also never try this before. I was so reluctant to leave Syndey especially when I am sleeping on their king sized bed. Luxury lifestyle~

Saw that bed? How could you willing to wake up in the morning? It was so comfortable!! I jumped up on the bed already, you can never see me till we got to go out again.

I was staying in 24th floor studio room, so unfortunately for four of us. But do believe me, that bed can squeeze four of us. The guys are staying in the other three rooms apartment at 73rd floor!! What a huge gap! Even the lift that we use to get on the rooms are different. Hmmp! Their master bedroom not only have bathroom but a mini jacuzzi as well. That room is so huge until it can actually fits evelen of us. Should have stay there for few more days! The views from 73rd floor was amazing!

This is the mini jacuzzi in the master room.....So nice right...JEalousY

This is the picture that I snapped when I standing near the glasses....Cool right?

You see the view...Can see the sea...This the second highest floor...MY GOD!!

From my room, the balcony you only can see this. Somemore opposite building I think is office, night time when they on the light you can actually see through the glasses. That was so cool!! Since the girls' room is only like 24th floor we do have balcony, if 73rd floor? Who will dare to stand out the balcony? I think if the wind blows only you can fall down from there.

This is the balcony in my room!!! Coffee with cake will be perfect...

Okay, I think I crap too much on the building I am staying. Let'smove on then. After checked in, we went Fish Market to crave for our lunch. Everyone was so so so hungry. So what did we have there? Obviously FRESH SEAFOOD!!!!!! I got a shock when I reached the market, bunches of people walking in and out like pasar malam. Then inside you can see lots of stall selling all the seafood, really looks like pasar in Malaysia somemore with the fishy fishy smells. Here right you can see lots different type of seafoods, some I didn't even see before. I was pretty amazed with it because I never thought that I will be able to see such market in Australia. The seafood here selling at the cheap price as well. Worth eating!!

Scallops...Looks nice right? Nicely arranged.....

Lobsters...All are so huge,somemore this is only from a stall there is more stallls!!!

This is the oysters I ate. There is lots more but I prefer to show you all the one I ate. Hehe. I ate oysters once only in Malaysia before this and I didn't like it. The taste was like *yucks*. But this time when I tried in Fish Market, HEAVEN~~~ The taste was so so so so nice especially with their lemon. You got to try this. They also have cheese oysters, bacon oysters and lots more but I only tried original and fresh one.

These two creatures here, when I saw I really don't know what is that. I didn't even bother to ask what is it cause my food was there waiting for me already. I roughly can guess it should be relatives to crabs' family. The grey one at the side should be from lobsters' family then. Anyone know what is that please let me know ya. Thanks.

After the yummy yummy tummy tummy lunch.....FULL....

Anyways for lunch I had sashimi of FRESH king fish, salmon and tuna, FRESH oysters with lemon and some chili sauce(their chili sauce-NICE!), FRESH eels which melted when you put it inside your mouth and the taste was unforgetable!!!! Then we also have fried FRESH calamari, chewy........Can you imagine the taste as I had it? And oh ya, I only paid AUD$10.00 for that which is equivalent to RM30.00. You think did I overspent on seafood?

I've got to stopped here. If not I will be so depressed for coming back to Canberra again. After that, it's time for us to take some rest in the luxury apartment but it seems like everyone don't want rest so everyone went for a short shopping trip. Before we start our shopping, we went to this place named easy way(tea indulgence) to fulfill Weiling's enthusiasm for bubble tea with pearls. She was so crazy over it. Of course I did have one cup too, though I am not a big fan of bubble tea. I just love to chew the pearls only.

My first bubble tea in Australia...Blueberry with milk tea...taste weird at first but then after that you will find it niceeeeeee.....

Then we went to G-Star Raw, a branded shop where all the guys are crazy over it. This brand I never hear back in Malaysia but it is so famous over here in Australia. Here one jacket might just cost you around $350 average, so ya the guys are the fans of it. We were in the shop for about an hour I guess. Everyone was busy trying their jackets, I tried few jackets too. It was really cool on me, but the price wasn't friendly with my wallet. Sigh. The most funny thing is after an hour every walk out with empty hand. Only Chua's friend bought one jacket I think.

This is the brand in case any of you don't know about it.

After the craze of G-star Raw, all the boys went back to apartment to go swimming. There is few people among us who are on diet, so they felt bad after the lunch and decided to do some sports to burn off all the fats and calories consumed. What a pathetic trip. Diet? The girls went for their shopping we just didn't want to join the guys or maybe it's only me. I don't know somemore I didn't bring my swimming suit. It was quite a bored walk I think probably because everyone is tired. After that, we just went back and shower to get ready for dinner.

The first day was really cold because it rained. Abit unlucky we all. Dinner we ate at this japanese restaurant named Makoto. They said it's very nice and you can't make reservation. They have this first come first serve basis. I was thinking is it that nice? By right I shouldn't doubt about that because I know I will be having nice food if I hang out with them. Haha. We waited kind of long just to get in the restaurant, it seems like lots people is craving for it. I just ate the chicken udon there and actually it don't really taste special to me. Their speciality is their sushi I think. It was quite big and looks nice, but I didn't eat that. Everyone was telling very nice. I was too full for that. Somemore rice? CARBS!!

Dinner wasn't a really special one for me though. Our next stop will be Darling Harbour. It is one of Sydney "buzz" place. Everyone who comes to Sydney will make Darling Harbour one of their stops. It really has nice and beautiful view here at night, totally suitable for couples to darling around. Probably I can get my darling here also...

Guys of the night.....acting cool.....zzz

Beautiful right? Somemore got four leng lui brighten up the whole photo......What else can be better?

Nick seems happy.....

Since everyone is posing so nicely, so someone suggested to do jumping shot...You can't find me there, I am too.......(particular?don't know what's the word)about my image so ya. Maybe next time I should just join because I know there will be people out there who reading this now thinking ' since when this lady got image?' I know you are the one thinking that.

We took too long time in Darling Harbour taking pictures till almost out of schedule. We were supposed to head on to karaoke now!! Iwas really tired, I guess everyone is tired. Here the karaoke very funny, you need passport to get in. It's like goin clubbing like that. When I reach the Karaoke place only, I know I don't like that place already. Looks so complicated and you can see all the lala and gengster-like people walking in and out. It is like anytime there will be a gengster fight like that. Looks exactly like those in HongKong movies. But it is not that cheap also to sing here, it cost about AUD$15.00 per person for two hours. Another thing is, for VIP room they only have two mics? When we asked for more, they said more mic will affect the surrounding sounds effect. I was like zzzzzzzzzzzz..... Even Neways is much better, I shall go back Malaysia and sing!!!!!!!!! So tempted to sing!! Anyone want karaoke?

By the time karaoke seesion finished, it's already 12 something. Everyone also showing tired and pale face after a long day. Yet there is some friends want to go hang out in Star City-casino. I was tired but I wanted to follow them to have a look how's the casino here like. Probably different from Malaysia one? But I never go into casino before also, so I can't really compare. I can only compare with those I saw in TV. Haha. I don't know why I so excited for that and expected so much, ended up I kind of disappointed with what I saw. The casino is like so dead. Somemore not every table are opened. When I stepped in I thought haven't reach, I was waiting for my friend to bring me to the casino. Then he was like telling me 'ya this is the one'. I was like 'errr okay..' So boring there for an hour do nothing, just walking around. But I did learn on roughly how to play some of the games. *laughing loud* We shall try next time.....

It's already 2 something in the midnight and we have to wake up for 9.30am breakfast tomorrow. It's time for everyone to go back and rest~~ I was so tired but at the same time excited again for tomorrow. Tomorrow should be more fun than today because everyone is going to BEACH!!!!!!

This is just the first day I reached Sydney yet I crapped so much about it. The second day will be on next post. It will be too long for you guys to read everything...Haha.

P/S : This message is only for the person named PAULINE LIM POH LING. I was requested upon her wish to mention about her name here. I mentioned your name! Happy or not? Proud? Nice? Haha. I wanted to post your picture here but unfortunately I don't have your picture only with you.. So don't be sad ya...Love you...Muakzz

SULKING@.@

2008-04-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

Today I am extremely unhappy. I don't really know why but the feelings just came to me. I think I am getting away from controlling my emotion. My EQ is decreasing in a drastic speed. First of all, I couldn't solve the mathematics problem in my text book which make me pissed off. This is certainly not the main reason that I am sulking, the main reason is I found out that I am not belong to Australia.

Is it the place or the people? Who can answer me? I think I myself know most well what is going on. Just that I better keep that to myself in case there is someone who shouldn't read the post read this. How nice if my family and friends are all here with me going through all this, then at least I won't feel lonely and sad like now. I feel like going back so much, I miss my family and friends, I miss the food, I miss everything in Malaysia. I am just so depressed when come to all this. I really wanted to cry out to someone about how I feel now face to face to someone, unfortunately I don't who I can head on to. It is so killing me to keep everything by myself. So I decided to speak out here.

For those who cares for me, don't worry I will be fine. I am just depressed for the moment. I guess thing wil be alright after a while. Thanks for being caring. Please pray for me that I can go through all this real soon. I really don't want to live like this throughout the days I am in Australia. If not I will consider go back Malaysia and study I think. I really prayed everyday that I can get rid of THIS!!!!

Let's not talk about that already, it doesn't make my day better though. Anyway, today something special happened. I experienced my first hail storm. For those who don't know what is hail storm, hail storm is raining also but not only rain is there but ice as well. You can see those tiny whitish like snow dropping from the sky. It is quite nice to see actually, but it is very cold of course. And the wind blows strongly until can carry away a skinny person. I was out there when the wind blows, it is so hard to go against it!! SO COLD!! I shall show you guys some photos but I doubt you can look through it. Try to observe then.

All the whitish thingy on the floor is the ice. Must really see carefully. So ya this is hail storming. SCarY.... Don't get hit by the ice! I don't guarantee what will happen next. There is video too...

Saw all the whitish thingy on the floor? You can see better there is something like jumping on top of the car as well. It is quite amazing to see that for first time I think. There is lots dropping on the floor. I was one of the few people standing by the side waiting for the storm to stop. Everyone was taking video and snapping photos like me. I guess they are new here too like me. If not I might feel shy to snap photos and take video. People might think ' this girl so weird, taking photos of hail storm...' haha.... The rain was really cold. I was shivering after that.

Tomorrow I will be going to Sydney for three days. So I hope I can enjoy there. The most excited thing that I am looking forward is to meet with Kelly. The last time I saw her is in airport when we are sending her off. Two months already after that day. Hope Sydney will be a fun trip I can have ever since I am here. I will try to get photos as much as I can. See you after Sydney!!

My FIRST Time

2008-04-12T03:25:00.000-07:00

Hey nice to meet everyone!! Thanks for spending your precious time to read some opening speech from me!so this is my first official blog after so long. I have been blogging about my owself in my space for some time. Recently there is some suggestion going around saying that I should create a blogspot. That is why I am here. I am not as good as others in writing or talk about some kind of topics out there. Most of the time my blog is about myself and what happened around me. That is the thing I would like to share the most. Sharing is caring.

Hmm, I feel a bit awkward to start a blog like this. It is like I am preparing speech for some kind of big function. Haha. I have no idea to talk about what now, I feel so nervous when I am typing my first blog. I wonder what you will think about me. I used to read a lots people's blog and I am pretty amazed with their use of language, creativity and all the things. I definitely couldn't be one of them as my english is poor to the max and creativity will never be part of my brain. Only food exists in my brain. yumyum..... So maybe blogging is another alternative to improve my English and increase my creativity(if I do have)...

Ermm, I think that is the end for the first blog. I got to go back to my studies....Will try to update as frequent as possible......Be aware I am asuper duper lazy person!!

Anyway, before I that I would like to wish everyone who been here all the best and good luck!! This is my first ever blog, not going to let you all leave without anything from me. "p

SMILEs.....